I do believe in endings and beginnings, but I do not believe that they can be chosen for us. Everything happens for a reason. It's not what happens that matters it's what you do about it that does.
Soon we are going to high school and most of us will be separated. But some will not, because if we have that strong of a bond with our friends we will not loose each other. Just like we can come visit our teachers back at middle school.
If you want something you'll work for it you won't stop just because someone decided on this date your life is going to change because you will no longer be going to the same school. I feel like school is too controlling, and I don't like being controlled. You get to control your story an you get to control your life.
So with this being said, chose your beginnings and ends. Because, in the end you only have yourself, and you have to make yourself happy.
With so many things changing in my life right now there are a lot of things that are complicated. Right now something extremely prevalent is becoming an adult in the Catholic church through the sacrament of confirmation. This is complicated because I want to get confirmed but don't at the same time for multiple reasons.
I do not want to get confirmed in the Catholic church because they go against their leader. For example Jesus would hang out with the prostitutes and gay people of his day, but for many years these people were outcasts in the church.
But, things are changing because we have a new Pope and he is really getting the message that our leader was trying to give to people, which is to love unconditionally and follow the ten commandments. Which means these outcasts are now allowed in the church.
Another HUGE issue I have with getting confirmed is that I can't come into the church as myself, I have to pick a saint to be called by. No one in my church actually calls people by their confirmation name, but the problem is that I can't just be accepted for who I am and the thing that bugs me the most is that I know Jesus wouldn't have approved of this.
But at the same time I want to get confirmed because I believe in Jesus I just don't believe in some of the teachings the Catholic church has.
So as you can tell I am all over the place with this issue and it is quite complicated. If you were wondering I am planning to get confirmed next Sunnday under the name of Saint Teresa of Calutta.
Recently I have read "All The Bright Places" and was inspired by the two main characters who went new places together in their home state that they haven't been to before. So, I thought I'd give my viewers a list of where I'd like to wander in the "Land of Lincoln" (when I have a car).
1.Shawnee National Forest
2.Galena
3.Tunnel Hill State Trail
4.Paul Bunyon Statue
5.Cahokia Mounds State Historic Site
While writing this, I am sitting in my room surrounded by the warmth of many blankets and the memories of a great man who has passed on from this life. I keep on trying to describe my Uncle Benny, but I am having such a hard time. The problem I'm running into is that no words can describe someone with such a lively spirit, a man with a quite knowledgeable and experienced mind and body. He had more compassion than you ever thought possible, when you looked into his eyes you could look for miles because the stories waiting to be told never ended.
So many fun times were had with him. One of my favorites was when he taught me a song (the song with be included at the bottom if you are interested) and then I sang it at preschool the next day and got in trouble. He would always have me sing this song at all of the family gatherings. Also at these gatherings , my cousins and I would sit on the floor and listen to his stories as we were mesmerized by the details he gave and wondered how the experiences he was describing were possible.
I miss my Uncle but am glad that he has passed on because it was his time, and he was ready. I hope that I can be like him. In "The Fault in our Stars" Hazel Grace say something along the lines of Augustus kept his humor till the end even though Augustus didn't. This line could fit my Uncle because even through the pain he could still chuckle about life.
Hi ho
Hi ho
It's off to school we go
To learn some junk and then we flunk
Hi ho
Hi ho
My teacher is a shmoo
She's round and fat like a baseball bat
Hi ho
Hi ho hi ho hi ho
